keep me runnin' like a deer in the headlights

last exam was yesterday. i'm so glad to be done with school. unfortunately i can't look forward to a relaxing summer since i'm working full time, but i'd rather be earning $8.55 an hour than sitting in class. this year did seem to end fairly fast, which was good. but i can't say i enjoyed my first year of college all that much. i know i don't get that whole "college experience" since i live at home, but i honestly hated going to class most days. maybe it's just because i feel like i'm not even going there for a reason. i have a major, and i'll probably be double majoring with political science this year, but i still couldn't tell you why i'm going to school.

i major in history because i enjoy some of it, but i'd still rather read it in a book or watch movies/tv shows based on it than sit there and listen to some professor's interpretation of what was important from a particular era. i took two classes that both dealt with 20th century europe, particularly 1900-1945, and it's funny what the differences can be in what each professor emphasises. and i'm going to major in poli-sci because it's something i'm passionate about. that's something i keep coming back to when trying to figure out a major or career. clearly, i think God has made me so passionate (or practically militant) about my political views for a reason. does that mean it's something he wants me to focus my life on? i can't ever see myself being a politician; i'd always say exactly what i thought, which would never fly in today's politically correct world. even majoring in it has me apprehensive. all the professor's are going to be rediculously liberal, and i'm not sure i have the inclination or patience to sit there and suffer through their Bush-bashing and impressing their leftist views on me. and of course, if i speak up, i'll quite possibly be screwing myself over by completely disagreeing with them.


burkee and i saw Troy last night. *spoilers follow* it was pretty good. the action was sweet, i've always been a fan of greco-roman style warfare. yes, that is pretty much the main thing i enjoy about history, the warfare. anyway, the slow parts of the movie were fine, it didn't seem to really drag at all to me. the problem i had with the movie was who to root for. they show you good and bad characters on both sides, so who do you want to win? naturally, i had a good idea of who died and i knew who won since i've taken mythology, but i still had trouble with watching some of the best characters in the film die at the hands of other characters i liked.

i got the impression the filmmakers wanted us to root for helen and paris, the two star-crossed lovers, escaping the big ogre of a husband. yeah right, first of all their so selfish that they care only about their own lust, at the costs of hundreds of thousands of lives. i can't believe paris freakin' lived. what a selfish, pretty-boy pansy. of course, i'm not surprised they didn't brutally kill him, they tend not to show the brutal deaths of women, and paris was obviously the biggest girl in the movie. but you've got the good on troy's side: hector (possibly the most likable character) and priam, and the bad: mainly paris. then there's the good on the greek: achilles (the coolest character), odysseus, ajax, and achilles' second in command. and the bad: agamemnon and menalaus. so who do i root for in the achilles-hector fight? i can't really root for anyone, since i know achilles is going to kill hector and drag his battered body around. hector was definately the most noble character in the film, so it's sad to watch him suffer that kind of death. and of course i knew girly-boy paris shooting achiles in the heel would piss me off. but as much as i hated paris, i can't say i wanted to see menalaus kill him. and i didn't want to see agamemnon victorious, but i knew the greeks would win. this was my problem with the movie, too many people to root for on each side. i think they wanted me to like the torjans more, but how can i hate ALL the greeks with people like achilles and odysseus? anyway, it was still a good flick.